That feeling of consuming the recommend daily intake for someone of your stature. For over half of my life, I have been avoiding the feeling of moderation and, well, fullness that is supposed to be normal. How people can cope with this feeling daily will always amaze me, how do they do it without the need to purge or work it off, how do they do this every single day?
I promised myself that I would have at least one normal day this weak but already this heavy, distended and completely unnatural feeling is driving me to the edge. Its only at times like these when I actually have and intend to keep a certain amount of food in me that I realize how much I'm governed by my impulses. In reality, I'm only typing to keep myself busy, to stop myself from doing something, anything at all to get rid of this feeling of 'wrongness,' this feeling of being completely uncomfortable.
But that's my goal for today, and I intend to stick with it.
From,
Dorcha Aingeal
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